A Rock In My Shoe

2002-09-11T02:51:00.000-07:00

This seems to be my last blog post....sniffle.......New journal is here Enjoy.....

2002-09-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

I'm still typing away at the computer like a good boy......2:22am I hope the rest of the world is enjoying their sleepy time! =o)

2002-09-10T01:33:00.000-07:00

http://www.angelfire.com/vt2/g_hols/Niceguy

That nice guys finish last article........

A bunch of nonsense by someone who obviously is having problems being a nice guy (scrawny ugly guy). I say this because plenty of nice guys get in the sack and have no problems. I don't know, I normally have sympathy for people having problems but to generalize things and say all nice guys finish last is bullsh*t. I am a nice guy, and I'm doing fine with my honey. For all those "nice guys" out there, suck it up, and stop being a bunch of weenies about it.....

2002-09-10T01:27:00.000-07:00

Only 12 more pages to type by tomorrow.......I think I can I think I can..........

2002-09-09T19:22:00.000-07:00

Wyclef's Two wrongs is a good song...I like it. Last week of school, first day done....gotta lots of work to do....=o)

2002-09-09T00:48:00.000-07:00

Well, I finally got to see Princess Mononoke....I don't know what to say..kinda weird with the big animals and stuff that talk and the whole ruturning the great spirits head to the body...I liked the action though like when the arrows pop off the samurais heads and what not...I think I'll keep it...=o) Good movie...

2002-09-08T17:48:00.000-07:00

Which Animaniacs Character are You?

Did you ever think you were a little...off? Well, you are. You're silly and playful, often to point of wacky outbursts, and nonsensical rambling. You're the type who'd talk in an English accent just to be different. You like to be prepared, as well, even if the things you bring with you don't necessarily make sense. You're good at making stuff up on the spot, and tend to have to use the bathroom at lot.

2002-09-07T14:53:00.000-07:00

I'm the :-x
Which smiley are you?

2002-09-06T02:42:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello. I really need some ideas for my website so if you're one who reads this, help me out. Eric, you said you woulnd't make a site like mine about random stuff....so what would yours be like? More movies downloading.....yay

2002-09-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

Sigh...life is too short to worry about petty arguements...I don't know what happened but I'll forget about it and maybe you can too.....I'm over it, so now its time to get this last term paper rocking. Remind me tomorrow to find out about the shuttle to Berkeley so I can get there this weekend. I don't feel like making the drive only to find no parking and having to pay crap loads of money just to park a few days. Maybe we can go see that girly movie you wanted to see.....People are moving in around here, Arlington is starting to get some life and I saw Milan already and Chris will be around soon. I actually enjoyed living with Carni paws because I can honestly say there was never a dull moment. I'm sure this year will be the same because I got 3 new awesome roomies. I miss Cassie and Chloe..... Maybe I'll call them up tomorrow and see how things are going.......I'm in the process of downloading Resident Evil, it will take another 30 mins or so, I'm getting it pretty fast...Not many people liked the movie but hey, I must say I enjoyed the movie because I have been a die hard RE fan since the beginning. I almost want to buy Gmae Cube knowing that RE will be Nintendo exclusive from now on. Or so I heard....Anyways, I don't have the dough right now and I dont think I will use it on that when I get it. I need to start making smart purchases...lol...like that will happen. Most of my money goes to one place and I'm fine using for that purpose for now. No......not drugs....OK OK OK, I better finish that paper....tata for now.

2002-09-04T22:52:00.000-07:00

Dude, this is bullshit...

2002-09-04T21:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so typed out...too many papers I've done and too much reading, I'm sick of words and stuff. I just wanna sleep...other people aren't helping either right not too...gosh I'm hungry....

2002-09-04T20:06:00.000-07:00

Beginning another paper......sucky!

2002-09-04T18:57:00.000-07:00

I managed to waitlist myself for two classes...there were litereally no other classes that fit my schedule.....I downloaded Heat lastnight...awesome movie, but its a sad one too, I love the ending...if I were a girl who liked action flicks..I would cry at the end....

2002-09-04T11:32:00.000-07:00

Wow AOL plays some cheesy music while your on hoold...

2002-09-04T10:46:00.000-07:00

How do you register for classes when it wont let you sign in? Hm..I'll have to figure out whats going on, but it only adds to my frustration....

2002-09-04T05:57:00.000-07:00

6 am....paper done.....

2002-09-04T03:10:00.000-07:00

I just realized........the end of this paper (whenever that may be) only means the start of another.......more suckiness.....

2002-09-04T03:07:00.000-07:00

3 am........paper is not done....still working.......banged my head today......burned myself in the shower today......got fatter by eating subway and pasta and cereal and ramen and a gallon of apple juice today........sucky......

2002-09-02T21:59:00.000-07:00

3 papers to write in 3 days!!!!!! Nooooooooooooooooooooo

2002-08-30T00:22:00.000-07:00

Amongst all these weird feelings..I have been watching Cowboy Bebop again...and it really hit me that I think the reason I love it so much is that I see a lot of myself in the characters...maybe I'm just being an idiot again, but I really think its cool. Spike lives without any cares the way I find myself doing all the time, go ahead make fun of me, but I really understand how Keiko Nobumoto wanted the characters to feel.....I feel the same way all the time. Normaly I don't share things I feel mainly because I've never done so before and people would thnk it is a weird change for me but now I don't know why this is leaking out of the previously inpenatrable personality that is me. Oh well....I am learning knew things each time I watch the series again, so I am gonna finish the rest of them a second time.

2002-08-29T13:11:00.000-07:00

In a strange mood......I think it is a small feeling of worriedness because of ther two term papers I have due next week....I have to read a small book for one of them that is due on wednesday, but the book hasn't shipped to me yet. I'm just tired I think...12 units is a lot to take in a summer seeing that they pump months of info into your head in a matter of weeks. My brain might be fried. Thats never really happened to me before....I feel exhausted. Normally I am good at recieveing any kind of work but this is just too much...

2002-08-28T22:56:00.000-07:00

Yes, I am changin web hosts again... Well actually, I'll still be using geocities but I'm gonna use another one too....12 MB just isn't going ot be enough space if I wanna make my sight uber cool. So I am using this other one that gives me 30MB but has less data transfer per month but I think it'll be fine. So don't be surprised if in the future my URL's are for weird sites...=o)

2002-08-27T21:47:00.000-07:00

So I haven't written in a while...school has been tough and I haven't done much other than study, learn, and sleep.....the world hasn't exactly been turning the way I would like it to but hey, as long as it is good for others....more entries later......

2002-08-23T01:15:00.000-07:00

Hello hello! DSL is here, running kind of slow, but hey, it needs to warm up for 10 days. I can wait....yikes, rent is due soon, gotta get ahold of the guys...

2002-08-21T20:48:00.000-07:00

Yay, the one thing that makes me happy when I'm down is the same thing tha is making me down right now...then what do you turn to?

2002-08-21T16:52:00.000-07:00

Kind of in a bad mood...just because you go to a better school doesn't mean I deserve to be treated inferior.....or whatever your reason is....

2002-08-20T23:31:00.000-07:00

Whoaaaaa...30 top ramen packs for 3 dollars......no, I didn't buy 30 of them, but I must say I was tempted. I like noodles way too much. I like all noodles way too much and I think thats where my excessive fat started to come from. Too many carbohydrates I think. Oh yes...pneumanultramicroscopisilcovolcanoconiosis is a new word I learned today. I learned it in Linguistics today.... some kind of lung disease coal miners get...and today my sociology professor said linkages instead of links....

2002-08-20T19:37:00.000-07:00

As I thought, my DSL didn't come on time. The service is activated but no equipment came so I am SOL. Just awatching some Lord of the Rings and trying to learn this software I downloaded. Sheesh it was tough but instead of paying 500 bucks, I just downlaoded key gens and cracks to install the new plug ins. And each plug in is 50-100 bucks each, but I foundcracks for those too, whew, thanks tek.

2002-08-19T16:12:00.000-07:00

Today I sat in my last class for 20 minutes talking this one guy about parties and stuff and then we both realized there must be no class today...the teacher mentioned no class on Monday, but we both thought he meant Monday the 9th because there is no class on that Monday either. Oh well, good chat non the less...

2002-08-19T16:07:00.000-07:00

I find it really sad that a poor homeless guy can sit in the same spot and recieve nothing until I see him.... I feel bad giving money because it kind of promotes remaining on the streets asking for more money, but I cry inside when I see those people....

2002-08-16T22:31:00.000-07:00

well, the only thing I will deny is the part about being desperate for boys... there is only one guy, and its been like that for a long time now. As for the music, maybe it is a phase, maybe not, but I do happen to like it, and not because my friends do, that u can't prove wrong just from growing up with me. As for the Roy thing, that was a BIG mistake on my part, I was foolish and will NEVER make the same mistake again. But I must say, u must really like making me sound bad... I'm not half bad as u make it sound, and u should let people develop their own opinion of me.

Don't read my blog if you have a problem, its just what I see.....how do people develop the right opinion if you act like someone else?

2002-08-16T22:05:00.000-07:00

I am sad, my sister gets more ghetto everyday....she types gangster thug style, thinks B2K is fine, only listens to ghetto rap, and is desperate for boys........ It's really sad how she acts, but to her its completely normal, if only she could see how her and friends act from someone elses perspective. They are sooooo ghetto sometimes. I hope someday she grows up and sees that it is perfectly fine to be yourself, and not care if you look stupid, or don't like the same cheap "music" everyone else does. If you read this Eva, I only say this stuff because its really sad, don't chase after ghetto guys who only try to be hardcore thugs (like Roy) and don't fall into the trends that society makes you think is normal. Don't deny what I say either because I have been there and watched half my friends go through it. Yeah we went through different phases than ganster thug stuff but we all learned the hard way that being someone you're not really sucks in the long run. I know you aren't who you pretend to be because I watched you grow from a little bug to this junk you are now. I know I'm being harsh but its because every time I come home from Davis, I see that you have changed even more and are turning more and more into those cheap women on MTV that you idolize so much. Just a thought........

2002-08-15T20:46:00.000-07:00

well rory if you had long monkey arms like myself then you would not have a problem with reaching stuff that may happen to fall behind the desk.

Long monkey arms would put me out of proportion.....and I would need new golf clubs...I'll stick with my short people arms for now.

2002-08-14T13:20:00.000-07:00

I added another page to my site.....a small page about me.....it will be updated between sometime soon and sometime never.......

2002-08-14T12:27:00.000-07:00

Question: Why do things that fall behind your bed or desk or anything for that matter, always have to be just millimeters away from your grasp? Kinda bugs me, I am always having to stretch my arm to lengths that aren't healthy, or I have to move things, pain in the butt........

2002-08-14T01:11:00.000-07:00

You're Leonardo!

You're the undisputed leader in any situation, strong and smart. You take your ninja craft VERY seriously, sometimes to the annoyance of the rest of the gang. You are loyal and sincere, and dislike chaos and disorder. You are very close to your family and like nothing better than sharing a pizza with them after a hard day.

Which Ninja Turtle Are You? Quiz by Irish

I am Leo.....

2002-08-13T20:11:00.000-07:00

Eva shut up...

2002-08-13T12:39:00.000-07:00

haha... not such a nice apartment afterall now, is it?

2002-08-13T02:28:00.000-07:00

Damnit! There was a piece of shit roach in my apartment! God I can't stand bugs and especialy those things. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhh, I almost stepped on the son of a bitch. God it makes me mad.....

2002-08-12T17:34:00.000-07:00

w00t! Who got an A on their paper, yeah thats right, I did. Ok Ok, it was easy but still.....

2002-08-11T14:06:00.000-07:00

Gheeeeeeeeeettttttoooooo.... I received one of those emails telling me my website is transfering more than I am allowed and it may be shut down for a few days. Sheesh, I wonder if it's worth 5 extra dollars a month (plus a gay one time 10 set up charge) to have my transfer rate higher....

2002-08-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

OK lets go over today.......hm....I woke at 9 from a phone call that was bitter sweet ( I was tired but was glad) and was forced to get up. I showered, ate and then sat at the computer delaying my reading that I need to do. I frequently went to the mail box hoping the little note telling me to go to the post office was there but no, it never came, nothing did. Does mail not come on Saturday here? It does at home, weird. Hm, then I brought my bike downstairs to go for a ride only to get to the last step and decided it was much too hot and that I might as well sit in the oven. Played some WarCraftIII and my eyes got a little sore so I just layed around reading. Oh yeah, I watched Bloodsport while reading. I added a Van Damme page to the site with all his movies and what I think of them. That took a hefty portion of my day. You may notice I forgot to add the movie Predator but I'll get around to it. For those who know, Predator is an Arnold movie and hardly anyone knows Van Damme started out as the alien. What happened was, Van Damme wore like a red suit in front of like a blue screen and they used his motions to create a special effect alien. After two days, he quit because he didn't want to be used as a special effect and not be credited for it. So they got rid of the special effect alien and used some guy who was 7' 2 and put him in some alien costume that looked good anyways. So yeah. The rest of the day went buy rather slow and I been trying to read here and there but let me tell you, Linguistics and Communications don't provide for some good reading...

2002-08-10T21:55:00.000-07:00

Eh....kinda in a groggy mood today, not sure why, I think I'm tired, I've gotten about 3 hours sleep for the past 3 days. I can't sleep here even when I try. Eh oh well, the best way to sleep is to get even more tired...right?

2002-08-10T13:01:00.000-07:00

My puter didn't come today either!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! I'm so mad, I could eat something!!!

2002-08-10T11:42:00.000-07:00

But my first instinct was to slap the guy...

2002-08-10T07:06:00.000-07:00

they say to always go with your first instinct...

2002-08-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah, I bought this printer at Fry's and there was this one kinda big printer that was 70 bucks and I asked some guy if it was any good and he said it was "ok" but that I should really get this other printer that 130 bucks so I said ok sure, I'll take it. But before I actually told him I wanted it, I was looking at the really cheap one and the picture quality was literally the best I had ever seen. So I went and asked if it really wasn't worth buying and he kept insisting that I buy something different. I ended up buying the 130 dollar printer and when I returned to Fry's not more than 4 days later (I'm a frequent visitor), I saw the same printer I saw for 70 bucks and it was 150 dollars now. And I know it is a way better printer than the one I got because I saw the damn quality and it was freaking good......so some jack ass talked me out of a good deal....

2002-08-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

I realized the bad part of taking a nap is that when you wake up, it's almost tomorrow already....

2002-08-09T15:33:00.000-07:00

!!!!!!!!! Computer didn't come today. I'm a little bit mad now considering today was the expected arrival date and that my g/f got hers 4 days after she ordered it, and for it me its been more than a week........

2002-08-09T14:58:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I was watching another Damme movie (hehe) and I noticed a goof. In the early stages of the movie, he kills this dude whos face you can barely see because its so fast but being the naturally curious and skeptical (spelling? the word just sounds funny to me right now) guy that I am, I pause the movie to find out it is indeed the same guy he kills later on in the movie! And there was no chance of this guy living the first time cause he took multiple bulltets to the chest. So yeah, I was a little disappointed to see that they couldn't just get another random guy to die instead of using the same guy twice.

2002-08-09T14:54:00.000-07:00

Cripes!!! So there I am walking to the mail box when I turn the corner and practically blasted with water coming at a force of 2400 PSI.... Good thing the dude didn't hit me head on or it would have been like taking a bullet. It just felt like lots of hard prickly things eating my face. Anyways, that was my adventure for now...unless you count dropping a box of cereal on your foot. This morning I was half asleep while reaching for the Crunch Berries when I dropped it on my wee little toe, ouch.

2002-08-09T14:46:00.000-07:00

Gosh I wish I wasn't this lazy....I can't think of anything to add to my site....

2002-08-09T11:46:00.000-07:00

Started the day a little late at 10 today but I really have nothing to do except some work and wait for the new puter. In the meantime I'm going to watch TimeCop I guess. You gotta love that first seen where some guy goes back in time to blast 5 confederacy guys with high tech guns. Anyways, shower time and clean up time, this place turned into a mess in here this week...

2002-08-09T01:56:00.000-07:00

Oops, I forgot to post the site... hehe, here she is. http://www.geocities.com/reerun18/ Just copy and paste, I don't remember the HTML right now...

2002-08-09T01:53:00.000-07:00

OK so I finished the site for now, I'm tired of working on it. I will add much more so don't worry if it looks a little skimpy. If you have any special requests, just let me know and I'll add it on for you...

2002-08-08T20:23:00.000-07:00

OK so my site is going to be delayed a little bit because for some reason I can't open my index page that needs the most updating. All my other pages open up but the one that won't open by the page builder is the one I need to finish. Oh well, I'll do it over and we'll see what happens in the mean time. It's not like I had a whole bunch of stuff so I will just do it again.....

2002-08-08T18:28:00.000-07:00

So today went the same as yesterday except I worked in some groups and I met this girl named Milk. Even funnier is her last name, King. So her name is Milk King, how am I supposed to keep a straight face while talking to a girl named Milking......

I have no class tomorrow so I'm hoping my new computer comes and hopefully I can go to the post office to pick the sucker up....

I have nothing else for now...

2002-08-07T22:33:00.000-07:00

OK I never really went through my day today so I guess I'll do so right about......now. Starts off at 8:01 in the AM because when setting the alarm, I got to 8:00 and accidentaly pushed the minute button one too many times and didn't feel like going back, I'm sure you know how that is. Anyways, I turned off the alarm that I set way too loud and went back to sleep. It's amazing how smart you get with managing time when you're dead tired because I go through so many calculations in a matter of mili seconds just to get more sleep. I figure out exactly how much time it take to brush teeth, shower, eat, put on clothes (yeah I ate breakfast before I got fully clothed) and get to school and stuff like that.

Once I got to school at the exact time I needed to be there in order to get a good seat, my day commenced. It starts bright and early at 10 AM with Linguistics. My prof is borderline gay it seems, which I have no problem with because he is funny just like my Communications teacher. I enjoyed this guy a lot because most of the time he was making funny noises trying to sound out certain sounds with a stuffy nose. I will enjoy this class....

Next class was Sociology 3, we spoke about a bunch of social problems and who they affect and so on. This class is OK, young teacher who says "indeed" way too often but again, fuuuunny guy, so all is good. Nothing really interesting so on to my last class.

My last class is Communications. My teacher guy is a tall skinny guy with a funny accent who admitts he has a lot of feminism traits. I don't mind this at all because he's quite humerous and it help the time pass. Anyways, I sat in a group discussing what my interpretation of cleanliness is. Basically I said just don't smell funny and you're good.

After all my classes were over at 4, I took a trip to safeway to buy the bare essentials....like milk, cereal, and salt. Not quite sure what the salt is for but I figured what the heck, maybe I'll make some martinis in the near future. After writing 4 pages of my communicating style, I end up here, writing to oblivion.....

2002-08-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

I'm 23% geek?!?!?! Noooooooooo.........I have geekiness in me......

2002-08-07T21:51:00.000-07:00

You are 23% geek

OK, so maybe you ain't a geek. You do, at least, show a bit of interest in the world around you. Either that, or you have enough of a sense of humor to pick some of the sillier answers on the test. Regardless, you're probably a pretty nifty, well-rounded person who gets along fine with people and can chat with just about anyone without fear of looking stupid or foolish or overly concerned with minutiae. God, I hate you.

Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com

2002-08-07T21:07:00.000-07:00

O....M....G.... I think I am enjoying my classes, they are easy and actually fun........shoot me now.

2002-08-07T18:46:00.000-07:00

Wow....three classes for summer school is a lot...........time to work...and dang 6 hours in class with no break is pretty nasty.......

2002-08-06T21:26:00.000-07:00

Hello hello........I'm bored.........and I'm going to sleep early tonight..why? I don't know why I am tired.........hmm..goodnight.

2002-08-05T19:41:00.000-07:00

So today was my first whole day in the new apartment...... And James, it is a lot nicer than when we first saw it for some reason, its just so big it seems......anyhoo, im still putting my room together and stuff so I will be back later tonight.........

2002-07-22T17:38:00.000-07:00

Hey look...I'm back...it was kinda weird though because when I clicked yes to be added to the blog it said that I was already a member...so I went to blogger and your blog was on the list...yeah so thats my story and I'm sticking to it.

Uh huh.....sure.....

2002-07-21T00:49:00.000-07:00

Can you believe I can't find the repair manual to my car? What kind of crap is this? Oh well, all good I suppose.......I'll just have to go to mercedes and buy one from them and just use a cane seeing that it will cost my leg most likely...........

2002-07-21T00:40:00.000-07:00

Thats horse doodoo.......after waiting minutes for it to load, it failed.........son of a....

2002-07-21T00:34:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah....I saw the other two members of the three amigos the other day....good stuff, haven't seen those fellas in a long while. I'll have to cal them up before I go back to Davis next month.....

2002-07-21T00:33:00.000-07:00

Sheesh....Yahoo's pagebuilder only takes about a million years to start up......

2002-07-21T00:30:00.000-07:00

So I'm sitting in the car waiting for the light to turn while talking to my mummy when I feel a big bang from the behind......no not that kind of bang from behind..........and some girl hit me!!! Oh well, no damage done so she got off easy....tsk tsk tsk...some people. Haven't been online for a while so I figured I'd give the baby another entry. A new web site ison the way still.....ok not NEW but the old new one I was working on. Just don't know what esle to add on to it. Actually......I think I'll just go ahed and publish it now, and fix it later. In a while crocadile...........

2002-07-08T02:53:00.000-07:00

Hello..........just doing some early entries. I have to be up super early today so I figured what the heck, just stay awake. I am currently updating my new site and thats about it. Today was good....did some swimming with the little sisters and bought Star Craft for 7 bucks. I know I know....the game is crazy old but people still play it.....like Alice's bro (Austin) so I thought I might buy it and play him online since thats what he likes to do. My car is broken damnit! Stupid valve is sticking like crazy making that really annoying ticking sound. /me shudders.... my mechanic isn't around and Smyth rapes you for garage time so I'll wait. Stupid Mercedez......no one knows German cars.....oh well. Current music Rare Blend - For the Love of Money good stuff. Well, time to go back to editing. Have a ball baby.....

2002-06-30T23:58:00.000-07:00

So here I am again, where I will probably be for many hours to come. Certain feelings about things have seriously changed and for now my head is not on straight so don't listen to anything I have to say. Alice comes home tomorrow so that pretty sets up my day. Although, she doesn't get back till late in the pm so that kinda sucks. Some old friends seem bitter that I spend so much time with her and that really sucks but friends should understand. Whatever, it's not my problem. The LAN was pretty fun.......most of those people are pretty cool. Well, they all are. I didn't get to meet one of the peeps that was there but oh well, maybe next time. I am finally getting over whatever sickness I had, thank God. I don't know but I don't think my lack of sleep and depression could have helped it much. But stop worrying now, I'm going to live. As for now I'll just be waiting for morning so I can begin a new day of anxiety and impatience. My computer has been a little laggy lately, and I don't know why, but I just cleaned it up not too long ago, so it's really bugging me. I am going to try and learn WC III a little more because when we played a huge game, I was always the one dying first, kinda felt like I was letting my team down. But hey, I was getting attacked from 3 sides by 3 other players while everyone else got to build, just because I was closest, not fair dude. Anyways, I'm going to watch some TV for now and come back in a bit when nothing is on. Laters..........

2002-06-30T21:11:00.000-07:00

Wow...the LAN was great, had a great time. I even got WarCraft III out of it. I'll talk about it later probably but now I need to clean up, my room has gotten to be a mess. Actually no, I'm just not happy with anything right now. But I'm greatful for the party because it got my mind off things and really helped cheer me up. WooHoo!! I'll be back......

2002-06-29T22:39:00.000-07:00

I just noticed, not that it matters to anyone, but the cding for the bloggers doesn't use two spaces after a period where it shows us our publications right below where I'm typing now. Boooooooo, I'm used to spaces darnit! Its just like our forums....whatever, maybe it comes out right on the actual blog page.......

2002-06-29T22:37:00.000-07:00

If you can't sleep.......go watch soccer at a friends house. Thats where I'm off to. I stayed out of trouble for a whole week on my own!!!! Can you believe it? I know someone wont't but hey, I'm a good kid whether you believe it or not. Today I got out of bed with my eyes red like......red stuff. They burned so much, I think they have been open for too long now and its beginning to hurt. I better get sleep soon, thankfully the reason I can't sleep will be home soon and maybe I can get some peace and rest. I hope she was good. This means you! Anyways, today was pretty crappy until I went swimming with some buddies (Josh, Bryce) and just watched some TV. I am gonna watch the world cup game at the same house because theres nothing else to do and I can't exactly watch it here without getting in trouble for being up at all hours. Sigh...this horrible week is almost over....one more day. Tomorrow is the LAN too and after the soccer game ends at God knows what hour I will go home and get ready to go to the LAN. I guess I gotta bring some food or else I might come off as a cheapskate and that is not me! Oh well, Safeway is always open so I should be fine. Just got to figure out what to bring, I hope they bring enough cables......fmzoot (one of the Erics) is bringing some extras so hopefully everyone will bring their own and we'll be fine. Anyways........back to reality, time to go day dream of sleep while being fully awake until its time to go watch the stupid game I don't really care about. Bye bye, take care...love peace and chicken grease.

2002-06-28T23:20:00.000-07:00

I'm on the verge of madness............still sick, still sad, no sleep for many many days. I think I have been kidding myself about the sleep. I lay there until day breaks and pretend to wake up. I think I even created a fake dream this morning to make myself think I slept. I have images fly through my mind what Alice is doing in the most well known country of craziness without me. It scares me. I can honestly say I have never felt this way before. The song I'm listening to is "Alone". Weird, it just came up from my playlist and it makes me sadder. Maybe if I'm not insane, I will attend the LAN I was so excited about just days ago. Now I ponder if I will lay in bed till Alice comes home, because, what else is there to do?

Amongst all this crapiness, I have begun to torture myself with weights again. I figure I should salvage whatever strength I may still have. Weight lifting is perhaps one of the most barbaric things to do. You grab a heavy object and lift it till theres no tomorrow and drop it when you feel like you are about to break. And then you do it some more. I think I'm doing this to take my mind off of other things bothering me. Maybe thats why I have cleaned my car and my room. I have also started to run at nights again. I wore plastics again and wow, I almost died. I don't exactly know whats going on right now, but I know its not good.

It's amazing how many thoughts about a bad thing you have when you have nothing else to think about. Especially when you lie there in bed. Honestly though, what else do you think about when you are worried about something? Call me a baby but hey, this sucks. I really hope I'm not a party pooper at the LAN. I don't want to drag my problems around when I'm around some of the coolest people I know.

I volunteered myself to work with grandpa today again and I know it was to take my mind away from other things yet again. Apparently they are not hiring at my old job from last summer. Actually, they are hiring, just not people that used to work there. Seems they lost a lot of money last year and now they wont hire anyone again, ass. I swear, I was there best employee. I did everything right. Maybe I slacked off a little but who doesn't? I worked effeciently because I liked the job. Sure, it was in retial, but a lot of friends stopped in and it was fun to chat with random people who thought it was fun to start convos with complete strangers in the mall. Of course my mouth always gets me in trouble with someone but thats just me. What can you do? My best buddy sorta offered me a job in Macy's, supposedly they need people in the department right next to him and his 3 years of working there should give him some tenure where he can talk with his manager and help me out. I'm up for the job.

You figure you should be really tired after not sleeping but I'm all jittery. My arms and chest throb like none other right now too. I think I over did it yesterday when I was feeling pretty bad. I kept going without stopping for a while, and I think I tore too much. "Eeeeeeeease myyyyyyy miiiiiiiiiind" I hope James atleast likes hat one song from the Bebop soundtrack becuase I love it. Dae-ho is quite found of it too. It makes me feel a little better.....sort of.

I'm sorry, this all sounds pathetic to you (whoever reads this besides Oded) but I'm going through rough times so give me a break. I'm trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. I'm sad....but why? Because the person I hang with everyday from dusk till dawn is gone and I miss her. Obviously I more than miss her, I'm mixed with sad and angry feelings at the same time. Part of it is that shes with her 6 ofher other friends out there who I know are enjoying themselves as much as possible. They all are big goof balls who I'm afraid are going to have a bad influence on them. Kim seems to be the most reasonable one but 1 out of 7 is not good. Allegra is crazy and Alice loves her a lot, not good. Jamie, her bestest of friends falls easily into peer pressure at parties and out having fun. Trust me, I've seen it happen. *Sigh*

I still get some joy out of being with my little sisters. Chloe had her 6th b-day party today and she was happy for most of the day. Cassie is always fun (7) because shes a big goof ball too. I miss them so much when I'm gone at school, but atleast I only have to worry about what happens to them at home, but not much happens at home, much less than Mexico.

Should I call it a night and lay in my bed trying to not think about horrid things or should I get out there and run? I'm not in the mood to run because last night I came home and after I watched TV till God knows when, I got a little sicker. I been on an awesome diet and I want to keep it up, but damn it's hard. I watched this video made by EAS CEO Bill Phillips, and it was inspiring. Its called "Body of Work" I recommend it to anyone who wants to get in shape, its not a weight loss video, or workout video or nothing like that, its actually a good story of 10 people. Seriously good stuff. Or maybe its just me. I used to have so many of those videos teaching you how to focus on certain muscles and ways to work them like crazy. They are all lost now in the forever growing garage filled with junk. I wish I could find them because I need them. I have turned into a small ball of chunkyness and my g/f has pointed it out. Makes me sad. I'm "fatty" now, its supposed to be a joke, but somehow I know its not. I don't want to be fat, but for some reason God made it a lot easier to get fat than to get in shape. I was so active back in the day and always lifted something and I had a nice body but now.......ha. My tummy grew this year in the damn dorms. Stupid stupid Junction!!!!!!!! (place where I got all my junk food with my reg card)

Got a haircut today, didn't want to show up to the LAN looking like Shaggy and have people see me that way for the first time. I loce when I get my haircuts, I feel refreshed and somehow it makes me feel a little less insecure about my looks. I have been having that eye contact problem lately. I think its because I am fat and that if my g/f notices it, I feel everyone else does too and I don't want to look at people staring at my enormous belly. OK I don't have an ENORMOUS belly but it is getting there.

I think I'll stop now, it was nice to get things off my mind again. I didn't post in a while because I didn't feel like doing much of anything. As mentioned above, I spent the last day in the garage torturing myself lifting heavy things (weights) over and over but tonight I felt was a good night to vent a few things. I guess I'll check out the forums. Chances are I will be typing here again later though. Ta ta for now.

2002-06-26T22:28:00.000-07:00

I finally saw some friends today. OK, I saw one. He was working and was bored so he took like his whole day off and hung out with me in the mall. Funny though, he has been working there for about 3 years now and the whole time we hung around the mall, he was clocked in getting payed. Sweet isn't it? Still sick.........and now some laundry is finishing up so I gotta go see whats up with that. I'll type some more later I suppose. I am so bored here at home, thats what got me to type in the blog again, during the day I can't really use the internet cause it ties up the phone line so I desperatly await the time at night where I can use the internet. Oh well, I'm a lamer, and I miss spending all my time with the same person everyday. Most people think I'm weird for that, but I love doing it.

2002-06-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

Because of my absent mindedness, I did indeed forget my password and username for Tripod so I'm going to join Geocities I guess. Although, if I know myself as well as I think I do, it will take forever for me to get around to doing it. =o)

2002-06-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

Hm....worked with grandpa.....and now I'm sucking on a pen. Just got a new digi cam that is a cam corder, web cam, and digital camera. Don't know what I'll do with it but yeah. I seriously need to get that job or I'll be working with the grandpa forever. James's blog reminded me that I might as well put down some thoughts on my first year of college. But that can wait, right now I'm thinking about sleeping early or not at all. Some interesting folks on IRC for once and I'm thinking about chatting with them for a while. Perhaps I will play with this camera thingy-ma-jig and post some pictures on my sad attempt on a web site. I haven't touched it in a while because I don't know what my user name and password is so I'm stuck with not doing anything to it.

Anyways, I'm still sick, hope I'm better before the BRN/PSX LAN thingy because I don't want to be a party pooper. Hm.....I'm still fat, although lost a few pounds while at home because even though I eat more food in one sitting, I don't do the munch on junk food all day thing. I might start exercising again. I lost a bit of weight while going on the mad skate sessions in the middle of the night at school. My skates need some repairs though, too much fun going all terrain and now they need some cleaning and new wheels. The wheels took a beating on some of the crappy roads at Davis. I also went too fast sometimes down the hills and behind a few trucks and I felt my barrings grind a bit too much. Oh well, but then again, new wheels are 80 bucks which kinda blows.

I am looking foward to summer session because I get to move into my new home and I think I will do fairly well now that I'm over my immature fooling around instead of doing work. I am ready to start working toward a future. Hm... sounds weird doesn't it. Anyways, this sick thing is making me in a bummerz mood.

2002-06-25T02:14:00.000-07:00

Poop, I'm tired, but can't sleep. I wonder what time it is in Mexico.......hehe

2002-06-25T01:52:00.000-07:00

Hello!! =o( I miss Alice............ I have nothing to say about today. Started the day sick again, worked, tried to sleep, and now I'm here. And it's 2 in the morning...............

2002-06-24T02:54:00.000-07:00

I've been out of action for a bit, got sick, real sick. Oh well, all is better and I am sitting here at 3is in the morning because I'm about to go to the airport to see the lady off to Mexico with all her girly friends. This means I have nothing to do for a week, or I need to bust out the old phone book. Hmmmmm I haven't read Usagi's journal in a while. I been posting on the BRN forums like crazy having nothing better to do waiting for time to pass, some people laugh at it, some people hate it, well you know what, grapefruits are good. Korea seems to be doing well in soccer, seems they are in the semi-finals now and US got booted in the elite eight group. Oh well, I'm not crying, they did good this time. We one a game, and scored more than one goal, unlike 4 years ago. I sent 1000 bucks the other day to my future ........well....he's not my roomy but techinically I'll be living with him. He's a cool guy, funny. I'm in a weird mood right now for no apparent reason, maybe its just I'm worried for Alice.

2002-06-18T01:07:00.000-07:00

Well today was quite a day. Woke up around 7:30 to take some guys to school, and then fell asleep at the g/f's house before taking her to school. After she got out of her senior breakfast event, we just hung out for the rest of the day which was pretty cool. We ended up going to hobby world to buy parts for my newly aquired hobby of one inch R/C cars. I didn't end up buying anything but it was fun none the less. Actually, going there was pretty lame, it was filled with the most retarded people I've seen in a while. The goofiest people seem to migrate there when it gets hot and play their vieo games there. I eventually bought some extra axels and 3 different gear types with 3 different suspension systems just to fool around with. Everywhere seems to have run out of the most powerful motor, mine is 26,000 rpm's but I want the 30,000 bad boy. Oh well, tomorrow is another day of internet browsing and I might have better luck. I have sensed a little bit of crappy attitudes from some of the people who hang around BRN and it was upsetting me a little. The little crappers come and whine their asses off and when I help them, they act nice for a minute and back to crappiness. Oh well, they are still young and need a little time to realize the thins people do for them. Anyways, tomorrow I am going to call up a few of the fellas and see whats going down in town. Goodnight all 1 persons who read this thing.

2002-06-17T01:25:00.000-07:00

Today has been quite a day. I woke up, went to pick up the woman for church but we were gonna be late so we just went to the mall. When we left the mall I came home to find out that my mom wanted ot go to the mall, sheesh. Of course I took her back to the mall and we walked for what seemed like forever. Oh well, thenI cleaned up the room my sisters took over while I was away for college and I still have loads of work to do. Then I went over to Alice's house to watch some TV and the soccer game. Blah, I was tired so I came home only to find out that I'm not tired. Oh well, I'm going to go to bed now just for the sake of going to bed and I have to wake up at 7:30 tomorrow. Sheesh again. I'm going to go to the hobby store because I payed 50 bucks for an R/C car that is about an inch long and it is quite fun, but I wanna see if I can buy a better computer chip to make it go faster. We'll see what happens.

2002-06-15T02:02:00.000-07:00

I can't seem to fall asleep. I have been put on a strict diet recently and its making me hungry 24 hours a day. My tummy grumbles while I lay in bed. I guess I'll go play some insanely addicting games.

2002-06-15T01:19:00.000-07:00

Wowzers.............I totally forgot about this bad boy. Shame on me! Anyways, right now I'm sitting here on my first day home on summer break. I hope all goes well this summer and I actually get a job somewhere so i can have some extra cash laying around. I'm quite happy these days for no apparent reason, I think its just because school is done for now and I don't have to worry about losing any sleep. Next year will be different, no more goofing around.....well not as much, because it was a pain in the ass worrying all the time about due dates. I'm just going to get all my crap done and have fun afterwards. In a couple weeks is the LAN party with the BRN and PSX gang which should be fun. Holy crap you would not believe how much stuff I had to bring home and how long it took to pack it all. I started packing around 9 and I didn't leave till 1. I didn't even do any fooling around in between either, it was 3 hours of packing and then my car was full. I didn't have any boxes because I'm slow like that so I used only one box. I filled it, brought it to the car, and then dumped it into the trunk, and went back upstairs to fill it again. I did this quite a few times and I was thinking my car would not be big enough for all my collected pieces of junk. I was so happy to be out of there and on the road. Although, the road was freaking hot! Oh well, I love a challenge. I also love driving, so a little heat isn't going to stop me. Its past 1 am now so I think its time for bed.

2002-01-28T17:06:00.000-08:00

Hello!